The Canyon

Sleeping on the Canyon's edge
Dreaming of the fall
Twisting, flailing toward the ledge
And waking from it all

What was this that I had dreamt
The soulless lover's fate
The spurning and the body's lept
This unrequited hate

Cast me into model; stone
The breathing of the sand
And let me be so quite alone
In this unforgiving land

Deep ravine, the river Blood
Flowing from mine heart
Trickle, splashing, flowing, flood
The canyon it does part

Where hath now my lover gone
The silent echo screams
To whence my body was so drawn
Upon thy gilded beams

Sleepless body, get thee rest
Upon the canyon floor
Lonely, lover's light moon crests
For one night, one night more

Autumn heart
Winter death
I scream for you
My final breath

I take the knife
And write the list
Dip in the well
That is my wrist

Smear my pain
Upon the floor
I'm hurting, hurting
Nevermore

Autumn heart
And midnight scour
How could love
Now turn so sour

I take the quill
And write my note
Might you cry
At words I wrote

Smear my face
Upon the ground
Making such
A horrid sound

Autumn heart
Of yesteryear
The memories
Are just too clear

I take the pen
And carve my name
In blue and black
The corpse's shame

Smear my flesh
Upon the Earth
Shameful, shameful
Wretched girth

Autumn heart
Winter's kiss
A ghostly shadow
You cannot miss

I take your hand
And hold it still
Upon my soul
It belongs there still

Smear my thoughts
Upon your gaze
Return to me
My Autumn days

Such a Beautiful Time

I want to kiss your scars
Your beautiful scars
I want to kiss your scars
Before they disappear

Who
Could hurt you like that
You
Could hurt you like that

I want to kiss your scars
Your beautiful scars
I want to kiss your scars
Before you disappear

Who
Could sleight you like this
You
Could sleight you like this

I've
Been breathing
For a thousand years

I've
Been seething
For a thousand more

Just
Repeating
The same score (same score)

It was
Such a beautiful time
Though short it was

It was
Such a beautiful time
Too short it was

Suicide

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heart breaking

tears

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wall

mask

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regret

remorse

unforgiven

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delete

trash

destroy

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please

forgive

me

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crying

at

work

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stress

heart

ache

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goodbye

i

loved

you

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im

sorry

for

everything

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This ravenous infection will
Ultimately one day kill
My heart's desire to one day cheer
And wipe away your happy tear

But this pain is just to great
I must not live, 't is not my fate
A stabbing, ripping from my gut
Anything to escape this scornful rut

I thought I'd last when daughter came
But oh how now I feel just the same
Why must your grasp be so damn true?
Once I'm dead, I'll applaud for you

My throat is scratchy, my heart bare
My eyes are bags that only stare
My limbs are limp, my back is lame
My soul feels nothing but shame

Suicide
Suicide
Suicide


I want to finally kill myself