The Race

Are we here

To compete

Does that make you

Feel complete

Do you know

What you've lost

I guess winning

Has a cost

Do they know

What you've said

What you've done

To get ahead

Can you feel

The wretched pangs

My disease

And other things

So listen up

Play it cool

Calm it down

You little fool

You had me once

I didn't know

It was just a race

To let go

What do I win

Or do I lose

Who has the time

To pick and choose

You're still ahead

I'm still behind

Search for reasons

I cannot find

Race to the bottom

Who'll get there first

I think winning

Might be the worst

So go on by

I'll let you win

If you promise

To let me in

So listen up

Play it cool

Calm it down

You little fool

You had me once

I didn't know

It was just a race

To let go

Now walk away

And plug your ears

Pretend you can't hear me

For 15 years

I'm on my knees

I scream and pout

You hold the power

Of holding out

I miss my friend

I miss my soul

Is this the end

The story's whole

I said I'm sorry

I'm all to blame

Can you forgive me

I'll do the same

So listen up

Play it cool

Calm it down

You little fool

You had me once

I didn't know

It was just a race

To let go

Go Get Him Guys

Iambic Lambic drink with me
Drink not, drink one, drink two, drink three
Pose all the words you want to prose
These words will not kill not one of those

Yeah I see the wrinkles in his eyes
I saw them before I'm not surprised
Who let him in go get him guys
Shoot at the hip hey here's a tip
Go get him guys

There's a body
There's somebody
Attack at will
There's the scent
I'm Hellbent
I could just kill

Well maybe if we all think differently
Well yeah but what's in it for me
Yeah I see the wrinkles in his eyes
Hold out my hand until you demand the other prize

We'll never confuse him for genius now
He sits there amazed and just wonders how
He constantly constantly well he tries
It's all OK well I always say go get him guys

"Now Serving"

How many of these am I supposed to take?
How many to prevent me from being awake?
There's a hole in this world that I'm sinking in
That's how it feels when your poison is medicine

What's a bottle between good friends?
You know if you asked I'd come again
There's a hole in this world that I'm sinking in
That's how it feels when your medicine is poison

I'm addicted
I'm afflicted
I just can't win

I'm afflicted
I'm addicted
Need my medicine

Doctor, Doctor, it hurts right here
The pain is somewhere between my ears

Give me something
Give me nothing
I'll get my fix

Give me nothing
Give me something
Let's see what sticks

Will I Ever Know

Turn on your receiver
Tune your frequency
To the great deceiver
Child delinquency

I'm sending out a beacon
I'm sending S O S
You are what I am seeking
I'm alone I guess

Did you really come?
Did you really go?
Will I ever know?

Did you really come?
Did you really go?
Will I ever know?

Proof of you lives on
In the scars upon my wrists
Though you may be gone
You're at the top of all my lists

I know that you're still angry
And damn it so am I
But God himself can't change me
I just can't live a lie

And lies can be so hurtful
Like when you say that you'll be there
As I approach my downfall
And you're not anywhere

But you found greener pastures
While I'm buried in the mud
These all important gestures
Well I'm not feeling good

Did you really come?
Did you really go?
Will I ever know?

Did you really come?
Did you really go?
Will I ever know?

Did you really come?
Did you really go?
Will I ever know?

Did you really come?
Did you really go?
Will I ever know?

The Confounder

Traversing through the midnight squallor
Standing firm and growing taller
I met a worker, nay, a scholar
To be my night's best caller

Her eyes were pools of glistened water
Bruised like life had beat and fought her
This was someone's sister, daughter
Now only canon fodder

I tried to love her, true I did
I gave my heart and cast my bid
When I looked, I found she hid
So I made myself be rid

I won't forget this one encounter
Each night I look but haven't found her
Writher, writher, suffer, flounder
I must find my confounder

Untitled

There's but one place
To treat this wound
Inside my mind
I am cocooned
Rroots and branches
Rarely pruned
Reveal a corpse
With blood festooned

And here inside
My capsuled soul
Is where I now
Fulfill my role
Myriad thoughts
I make my cull
In torment now
I thus am whole

Regret not but
That I am late
I've left my dearest
Ones to wait
Spurning ever
After fate
With thoughts my mind
Can never sate

Tripwire

"Tripwire" by Nathan Langford

I said that I love you
You called me a liar
I told you I hate you
But oh I admire
Your sudden restraint
The heartbeat is faint
I fell on the tripwire

You changed your number
And went back to sleep
In some wicked slumber
You made not a peep
You set the trap
And started to clap
When I fell on the tripwire

And you won't say where you've been
And you won't say what you've done
You didn't fall for all of it again
This time you said the battle's been won

My thoughts fade to black
When I step in the fire
An ambush attack
Stuck in this quagmire
I'm a sitting duck
I ran out of luck
I fell on the tripwire

And you won't say where you've been
And you won't say what you've done
You didn't fall for all of it again
This time you said the battle's been won

A victorious defeat
I retreat, I retreat
I'm bloody and bruised
I was tortured, beat, abused

I'm just so fucking tired

So I fell on the tripwire

Blue Devils

I have but just one soul to sell
I dither in the mire
Transaction made, a trip to Hell
The merchant was a liar

Reeling in these desperate blues
The devil he hath shaken
Consummation of his brews
The devil he hath waken

Drink until your bile's strewn
And splattered on your face
Soiled, soaking, pantaloon
A heavy heart's disgrace

Know to stop but never will
The heart aches to endure
Raise thy glass and take a swill
And pour, and pour some more

Hush little baby
Don't say a word
Keep your mouth shut
Like it never occurred
Plug your ears
Nothing was heard
Big brother is watching
Like fucking Big Bird

Keep your eyes glued
On Sesame Street
Modified food
Soylent meat
Don't mean to be rude
On the government teet
The people subdued
Too slow on their feet

Pray to your God
And cling to your guns
A tip and a nod
To the Atheist ones
A reason for reason
The rest take the blame
And answer for treason
What a shame, what a shame

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The ice sheets are melting
Don't know what to do
Frozen in oil
Frozen by fear
Hush little baby
Don't shed a tear

I'm living the past
Through your hologram
Damn girl
I thought it would last
But the image you cast

Was haunting me
Taunting me
Like the bullies at school
So fucking cruel
Calling me fat
Like I didn't know that

Your words fucking hurt
Like listening to poison
Can't take the noise in
But I don't have a choice
When you speak in that voice

Because I'm obsessed
Like a man on a mission
To cling to your words
Like a man with a vision
Because I'm possessed
Like a robot with feeling
And I'm fucking reeling
Sleep on the floor
With my head in the ceiling
Can't take anymore
I showed you the door
Now just wait for the healing

I don't stalk you on Facebook
You blocked me, I looked
But even with that second account
I don't look because I'm pushing you out
But you kept me on MySpace
What's that about?
You still use it too
What's wrong with you?

You're just a disease
A parasite, a leach
A mite, a tick or fleas
You breeze through my blood
Like a hurricane of cocaine
Numbing my heart
Driving me insane
Ripping apart the veins
I used to play like a violin
With a knife on my wrist
Like a violent violinist
Playing his tune
To himself in his room
Until the blood disease orchestra
Gathered in puddles
Like seas on the ground
And piled up around him

The Canyon

Sleeping on the Canyon's edge
Dreaming of the fall
Twisting, flailing toward the ledge
And waking from it all

What was this that I had dreamt
The soulless lover's fate
The spurning and the body's lept
This unrequited hate

Cast me into model; stone
The breathing of the sand
And let me be so quite alone
In this unforgiving land

Deep ravine, the river Blood
Flowing from mine heart
Trickle, splashing, flowing, flood
The canyon it does part

Where hath now my lover gone
The silent echo screams
To whence my body was so drawn
Upon thy gilded beams

Sleepless body, get thee rest
Upon the canyon floor
Lonely, lover's light moon crests
For one night, one night more

Autumn heart
Winter death
I scream for you
My final breath

I take the knife
And write the list
Dip in the well
That is my wrist

Smear my pain
Upon the floor
I'm hurting, hurting
Nevermore

Autumn heart
And midnight scour
How could love
Now turn so sour

I take the quill
And write my note
Might you cry
At words I wrote

Smear my face
Upon the ground
Making such
A horrid sound

Autumn heart
Of yesteryear
The memories
Are just too clear

I take the pen
And carve my name
In blue and black
The corpse's shame

Smear my flesh
Upon the Earth
Shameful, shameful
Wretched girth

Autumn heart
Winter's kiss
A ghostly shadow
You cannot miss

I take your hand
And hold it still
Upon my soul
It belongs there still

Smear my thoughts
Upon your gaze
Return to me
My Autumn days

Such a Beautiful Time

I want to kiss your scars
Your beautiful scars
I want to kiss your scars
Before they disappear

Who
Could hurt you like that
You
Could hurt you like that

I want to kiss your scars
Your beautiful scars
I want to kiss your scars
Before you disappear

Who
Could sleight you like this
You
Could sleight you like this

I've
Been breathing
For a thousand years

I've
Been seething
For a thousand more

Just
Repeating
The same score (same score)

It was
Such a beautiful time
Though short it was

It was
Such a beautiful time
Too short it was

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tears

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wall

mask

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remorse

unforgiven

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trash

destroy

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forgive

me

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crying

at

work

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stress

heart

ache

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goodbye

i

loved

you

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sorry

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everything

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This ravenous infection will
Ultimately one day kill
My heart's desire to one day cheer
And wipe away your happy tear

But this pain is just to great
I must not live, 't is not my fate
A stabbing, ripping from my gut
Anything to escape this scornful rut

I thought I'd last when daughter came
But oh how now I feel just the same
Why must your grasp be so damn true?
Once I'm dead, I'll applaud for you

My throat is scratchy, my heart bare
My eyes are bags that only stare
My limbs are limp, my back is lame
My soul feels nothing but shame

Suicide
Suicide
Suicide


I want to finally kill myself

The Fate Which We Hath Made

Never hath I seen such grace
As whenst thou hast revealed thy face
Now sorrow creeps and fills this place
My legs are lame but heart gives chase

And never hath I seen such pain
As whenst thou gazed upon the rain
A love that drives me quite insane
To death our love is lain

Art thou saddened by my leave?
Dost thou not repent nor grieve
The sudden loss of love once true
The death of love which grew and grew

Casting off the thoughts dost aide
In letting love be deathly laid
The spirit in thine eyes doth fade
The fate which we hath made

Adrift

All this is just my legacy
The world so dim mine eyes can't see
My heart adrift amid the sea
For love is just a fallacy

Carry me to water pure?
Lift my cup begin to pour?
My heart so dry this drought endures
My heart adrift it drifts off course

Rescue me from snakes and sharks?
Take me from the vultures' hark?
Kiss me waken my lost heart
And let that our lips may never part

A kiss! Awaken devil's plan
Awake a broken beaten man
Alone my heart has stricken land
Beach wrecked buried in the sand

The Butcher

Wretched pangs
Be still my heart
Slicing thither
Slicing start
And where might love
Be truest true?
I slice my heart
From one to two
A slice for me
A slice for you
Discarded quickly
Through and through
I slice my heart
A slice for you
Where love is truest true

Hope

It seems the time
For lights to dim
Your soul eclipsed
My every whim

Darkness where I
Hath once stood
And be once more
If that I could

Trouble shadows
Your darkly path
Fainting screams
Beneath your wrath

Love destroyed
Inside your hand
Like wild fire
Destroys the land

Hatred is
Something learned
Nothing born
Nothing yearned

Nothing loved
Nothing wrought
Nothing wanted
Nothing sought

Nothing proud
Nothing flaunted
Nothing loved
When hearts are haunted

Not admired
And not cherished
Not desired
When love hath perished

Oh! What Unrepentant Evil!

Oh! What unrepentant evil!